Saturday, April 10, 2010

And then there was that thing that happened

Friday was certainly a life changer. I got to work, was called into the President's office, told I was being let go because he didn't think I could do the job, walked to my office to pack it up, turn in my bus pass, building id and company phone and right on out of the office.

The best news of the whole interaction was that I didn't cry! A small victory but definitely a victory. Oh I cried later, whole big piles of tears, several times. Many times. But right there and then I didn't. I held it together and for that I'm eternally grateful.

I really and truly did not see the getting fired thing coming. At all. In the just shy of two years that I worked there I never once had a review or a talking to or a notice of anything being wrong at all. It's not as if I was happy there or even wanted to be there, in fact, working there was starting to effect me physically, emotionally and mentally. But still, I was FIRED! Who would ever want that? Not me for sure. I would have much rather have left on my own terms. But here's the thing, oh well. I don't have to go back there. Never ever again!!!!

So I'm on a Spring Break of sorts. An unforeseen break in the action of the every day. Change of path and decisions ahead for me. Overall I feel lighter and already a whole lot better. And yet, I did just get fired. Blech.

3 comments:

Kate said...

Emily! I am so sorry! And yet this could be a new beginning for you. It sounds like you've been unhappy there for a while now.

I'm so proud of you for holding your head high and now crying. Hang in there and remember the sun always comes up tomorrow! (Thank you, Annie.)

xoxo

Amy L. said...

WOW. What a shock...but I sense new doors opening for you. The universe seems to have known what you needed! Have a little rest, Sweetie, and big hugs to you!!

Pickles and Dimes said...

Oh Emily, that sucks that they fired you. It's their loss, the idiots.

I hope your next opportunity is even better. I know it's hard to do right now, but try to take some time to do some fun things you've always wanted to do. That was Jason's biggest regret: that the whole time he was laid off, he was too worried about finding his next job that he didn't allow himself to enjoy his free time.