Thursday, September 9, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
- Understanding and compassion are central to your life strategy.
- You strive to cause people and things to function well together.
- Seeing potential and opportunity is a primary talent.
- Strategic thinking is your forte.
- You can always see another way to put things together.
- You have wit and creativity in your thinking.
- Understanding others and working with them is a key asset of yours.
Even before I found this test today I was feeling out of sorts, and yes hormonal, but overall unsettled. What if this is the wrong path? What should I be doing? What do I really want to do? I'm really feeling so lost right now. So unguided and directionless.
When I got back home from my trip to MN and TX I was feeling fantastic but now the high has faded. I'm feeling scared and confused. I can't keep being unemployed, financially, or realistically. I want to be around people again. I want to be productive again. I want to...something again but what?
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
I met with my Dr on Friday to discuss my current hormonal situation which has also been craptastic of late. She prescribed a bcp that is supposed to help with both the craptacular periods and my horrible mood. Sounds like a great up side. The down side is my insurance doesn't cover it so it's $70 out of pocket each month. Crap.
Perhaps it was a horrible idea for me to go off of the anti-depressants. Perhaps I'm not cut out for this job. Perhaps I shouldn't have, in a fit of loneliness last night, signed up for an internet dating site when I've been there done that more times then I can even count.
What the in the name of all that's holy is going to make me happy? Why does everything make me want to cry?
Friends whom I love dearly are having babies and I couldn't be more excited for them or more jealous. People ask the dreaded "why aren't you dating anyone" question and a part of me shreds to pieces.
When do you suppose I'll feel like I have a life that's something. A life that makes me want to get out of bed each day and take it on. A life that is enough for everyone to see and there are no more questions of "why aren't you" or "why don't you". I want my life to be enough and more. I do not want to regret my time here.
For now I'd really settle for being able to keep a lid on the tears while at work. Ugh. Makes my face hurt. Makes my entire head hurt. Makes all of this trying to cope crap even harder.
And on that cheery note I shall leave you with this quote from Real Genius just because:
"I was thinking of the immortal words of Socrates, who said, 'I drank what?'"
Monday, March 15, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Book 3 of 2010 started with difficulty this weekend. I kept having to re-read sentences and start paragraphs over again. The sentences seemed to scatter into word pieces in my brain that I could not put back together into a logical flow. Wait now her husband died...how, wait now she's...a widow, wait now she's living alone...where, I duh huh?
Am I the only one?